I am completely head over heels for my boyfriend. Sometimes I feel like he is exactly there, but often I feel as if he is just telling me what I want to hear. I sometimes feel more lonely than when I was single. I've tried to talk to him, but I just don't feel like I am getting anywhere. He has mentioned wanting to marry me a few times, and I have gotten my hopes up for a proposal at some point down the road, but then he will act as if I just drive him nuts and he cannot bear another second with me. I've never loved someone so much, but I crave more. I need to know that he feels this way about me always, so maybe I am just expecting too much. How do I calm myself enough to decide what to do in this relationship? I love him so much, I cannot even stand the thought of not having him in my life, but I am hurting. Sometimes I feel like I am just not good enough for him, and maybe that is the case. I just can't figure out where his head is. I am so tired of crying and second guessing myself. I love him. I love him. What do I do?